HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

Went to the count down at esplanade lots of ppl.. got pushed and pulled around-.-... lol.. the fireworks were reali reali great.. i was so so so close to it!!!! i loved de red ones=D i swore they were almost right infront of me.=D no pics. cos camera and hp batt died on me-.-

Schools starting tml.. NOOO!!!!

i hope u keep your promise.. and so wil i..

nites=D
All de best in 2008!!!

STUPID TIME TABLE!! zzz

One Of My Fav Song=D

No one ever saw me like you do

All the things that I could add up to
I never knew just what a smile was worth
But your eyes say everything without a single word


Coz there's something in the way you look at me
It's as if my heart knows you're the missing piece
You make me believe that there's
nothing in this world I can't be
I'd never know what you see
But there's something in the way you look at me


If I could freeze the moment in my mind
Be the second that you touch your lips to mine
I'd like to stop the clock make time stand still
Coz baby this is just the way I always wanna feel


Coz there's something in the way you look at me
It's as if my heart knows you're the missing piece
You make me believe that there's
nothing in this world I can't be
I'd never know what you see
But there's something in the way you look at me


I don't know how or why
I feel different in your eyes
All I know is that it happens everytime


Coz there's something in the way you look at me
It's as if my heart knows you're the missing piece
You make me believe that there's
nothing in this world I can't be
I'd never know what you see
But there's something in the way you look at me


The way you look at me

Schools startin soon!! sianalization!!!!!

went to buy my crumpler today!! bought a red one=D nice nice i like it!!! lol
sorri i didnt go wif u as promised cos my mom wanted me to get it on de spot.. cos she thinks i wil forget-.-.. lol


went to sakae for lunch! it was great=D! lol

nothing much le.. im tired.. veri infact.. 881 is nicE!!!!!

一人一半!!! lol..

nites ppl

i had a great day, went for a basketball match in the afternoon. LOL full court matches reali exhaust me alot!!=(

We agree to go watch a movie, my cousin and our friends. At first when we were playin basketball (jus random shooting) i overheard them talking about going out later. when i approached them, they jus brush off that topic. well jokingly, didnt thought much about it.

well my cousin agreed to msg me the details of de movie as well as wat time we're meeting, so i went off first to join my other frens to tour orchard=D especially when christmas mood aint quite over yet=D

WAS supposed to get my crumpler, well the colour i wanted aint here yet, and partially cos i wanted to wait for my cousin to get it. together u see.. so we hang around.. haha adrian and derrick=D they told me i got bigger sized=(((((

ages since i saw them haha i dun deny tat im puting on weight. but tats part of my body building scheme=D

And the best part is not here..
after everything, i was getting worried, wondering why my cousin hasnt sms me, so i initial the message..Asking him if he has bought tickets for de movie. guess wat hes reply was...

Cousin: Oh yea i bought.
Ben: why didnt u tel me?
Cousin: o.o you all also nv say sure comin de ma. anyway you wan now oso can ma
wtf? i thought he was supposed to msg me? and now hes blamin me?
well this kinda petite stuff im not suppose to go kick up a fuss.. well u knw, im a guy and ya..........
but this aint the first time im facing this.. i couldnt possibly tel him straight on and jeopadise our relationship? afterall hes my cousin right? but i jus m reali disappointed wif him.. after wat i've heard earlier on de court and wat im seeing now.. it jus cant help but make me feel tat hes jus leavin me out. well... i hate his freaking attitude. irresponsible rude and yet sadly my cousin.
he didnt even apologize.. jus leave it liddat.....fk it.....!

right now im jus chillin in my room.. hopin someday he'l understand wats de feeling like.. to be treated like tat by your own cousin. who hangs out wif u all de ttime..

Ps: fiona dun brood too much.. your ex.... NTS!!!! zzzzzz
haha if its yours i'l always be.. smiles always

Personal Reflection

Dated: 28 dec 2007
Time : 12:26am

Im sick of my life......

It seems only through here is where i voice myself...

jus a moment ago i was thinkin if its my fault tat all this haf to happen. call me sentimental for all u wan. truth is, i reali m. i dun deny myself. it always happens when im on de same bus ride home everynight, under de same conditions, musics affects a person's mood? i wonder.....

U reap wat u sow. is tat always true? well apparently it doesnt to me.

Money... izzit truely impt to an extend wher it changes one personality to a point wher efforts are to be dismissed wifout recognition.

And there i was, always trying to keep up wif de trend wif pathetic abilities.
I feel inferior. i reali do.. i felt stupid. when all tat ive done is to be condone as hypocrcy.
Such a shallow person like yourself, feels de outside condamns the inside. never judge the book by its cover, u sure knw how to use it reali well..

My family. always troubled wif finacial problems. though they dun reali mention it to me, but somehow, i managed to comprehend them afterall.. the feelin of inferiority.. can u imagine it? seeing something u wan but cant get it. saving like shit jus for somethin others would probably haf gotten it easily, starving for your beloved accessories? though materialism seems impossible for me.. im stil a human wif significant desires, is tat wrong to occasionally pamper myself? not to the extend of lavish spendings, much less an extravagant shoppin spree.

I dun blame them.. i blame myself.. its not their fault.. its mine.
mani atimes i jus hope time would go bak, where i would put certain things right.. certain things i've done wrong.
i miss my sec schol. times wif my frens. de days of hopes at least, its where i was moulded into who i m. NOW, seems so foreign to me. i prefer de PAST.

who could haf understood wat i've written, my pain, the uncomparable childhood which im ashamed to bring up..

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A new beginning

People often say.. The end of something marks the start of another thing..life seems to be getting better and better. The ups and Downs brings about excitements in our mundane routines....here i am, a typical teenager facing all the problems in the world................................................................

unlike others i tend to keep things just for me to know and for others to find out.. well im trying to change tat habit.. really sucks..... and unlike the majority.. ppl tend to misunderstood wat my real intentions were.......... OK drop it.............!

Life is meaningless without companionship right?!
lucky for me I've found one!!!
One and oly..........................!!!
but unlike typical couples.. our honey moon period comes later.. and i certainly knw u wil w8, and so wil i...................................................................

Recently i've read a book...
Life itself is full of sacrifices... and unlike others. u sacrifice to let others live..
Many would violently object.. but who would comprehend the hidden lesson within?
sacrificial becomes part of human life.. u gave up your life.. your hobbies.. your time..to condone to others desires. Have u ever thought tat others might be doin de same thing for u? sacrificing their everything just to perhaps save your lives?

Just like a leader who seeks forward and finds himself facin numerous land mines tat blows himself up... He sacrifice his life to save wat may seems to be a vehicle of soldiers..
Have u ever wonder wat your actions may result in?
for instance u throw a ball, hits a car. the car driver got shocked. he suffers a heart attack... u went over to pick the bal and narrowly misses the vehicle, while de driver grips his heart tightly gaspin for air.. and finally lose control of his mobile which eventually crash moments later, causin his death.... on one side.. u may jus haf picked up a ball.. go home for a shower.. a great game u've played.. while on the other.. u caused a life lost....... its how oneself seeks a matter in different perspective.... analyse it...................................................................... wat deems a persons failure deems wat kinda thinkin he possesses.

Cant help it......!
Stop whining...!
Readin is jus my hobby alright?
and of course.... i would nv leave U out.. My love