My relentless....

Recently i've knw a certain little gal. Shes mischievous, cute and could be petty at times. She had this problem, the "princess sickness". kinda like wanting ppl to follow her ideas, where she wanna go and suit her request. her friends shunned her because of that.. most would detest that attitude of hers. but i beg to differ.. i feel shes different from most gals that ive knw.. i think shes jus like a spicy flavour adding to a insipid main course. i would say, i feel comfortable being jus beside her.. even if we didnt talk as always. or even if we could jus spend few minutes together.
But it seemed too good to ever be true......

I stil rmb those eyes that u use to look me with,
How were they filled with emotions, but now seemed to be cold and foreign.
I told her my feelings and ever since, ive been trying to win her over. but it always results in a futile attempt....

You told me you never would see us together
You said that it is impossible, but i still tried.
At least with my whole heart, i poured it all out.
But as always you never fail to dis me aside, cast away my feelings and treated me differently
I knw its my fault, to make you go through this agony, to make u reject when u didnt want to hurt someone......
And still u didnt yield, instead the wound you made in my heart deepen even more
Till i finally breakdown and decided if its wat u wan, its wat u get........

i tried..
i knw...

Perhaps if we were together things would probably be different...

nothing special in particular happened today.. Went to study at cousin's place. ordered mac for food.. Was on my way home when i spotted my secondary school, School mate.. chatted wif her and found out that she had a reali reali kinda special yet expensive hobby. she loves to travel and will save up for travelling.. well abit uncommon for us teenager to save up for travelling. i mean most ppl would just save for for something they want? and the best part is. she enjoys travelling alot.. well i find rather interesting since shes the first among my friends to kinda enjoy travelling and will...well save up for it!.
Well i do hope u'll save up soon enough.. ahha who knows i might be the next one to do the same....

Lost Love....

I believe every story has an ending, needless to say a very touching one. after going through so many ups and downs we still end up at the beginning where it all begins. I hate to say that I'm gonna lose you, yet again even though after that last incident i swore that i would cultivate those "lost" back again. I failed miserably. Who's fault was it to blame? neither you nor me. i guess this is what most would call fate. But then again, fate sure has its way around me especially.. not to mention how my mind has been warped and twisted by it.
Is forgetting someone that easy? even after we've spent mostly every minute together? How foolish of me but for a moment it seems like I've lost my consciousness about prioritizing. The process is definitely pain-staking. even as I'm typing it out, i could feel it darting into my heart.
well i guess all i could do now is to forget. But u know i couldn't possibly do that. even as we speak, time ticks away, and promos are impending-.-'' Fate sure has its way around me.
maybe one day we will get a chance together again. for i sure that brotherly feeling i gave u will soon fade away.....