Truth at last...

Thursday 8th Oct 2008,

1 day before dooms day...

Tml is the release of promos results, damn vexed now. i think im totally useless, disappoint my relatives and most importantly my parents. i think i cant make it to pre u 3. Gonna get kicked out soon enough. I was thinking of making it to SIM after my army. Guess its the only opinion i have now.

okok lets say i get kicked out.
what m i gonna do?
1) Exercise and get my body
2) work to feed my pocket
3) Stay single?
4) Pick up something to learn

ii think im done waiting for u.. no matter wat i do, u'll always treat me like trash. It hurts me so much.... im giving up on u....

Oh theres one more reali reali important thing i wanna do.. i wanna learn how to improve my voice.=D Join the Ocean butterfly (music forest) school of music=D jus like zi jun bernard!=D lol.. yup.. i think music is something reali important to me.. without it, life's gonna be reali boring then it oreadi is...

My relentless....

Recently i've knw a certain little gal. Shes mischievous, cute and could be petty at times. She had this problem, the "princess sickness". kinda like wanting ppl to follow her ideas, where she wanna go and suit her request. her friends shunned her because of that.. most would detest that attitude of hers. but i beg to differ.. i feel shes different from most gals that ive knw.. i think shes jus like a spicy flavour adding to a insipid main course. i would say, i feel comfortable being jus beside her.. even if we didnt talk as always. or even if we could jus spend few minutes together.
But it seemed too good to ever be true......

I stil rmb those eyes that u use to look me with,
How were they filled with emotions, but now seemed to be cold and foreign.
I told her my feelings and ever since, ive been trying to win her over. but it always results in a futile attempt....

You told me you never would see us together
You said that it is impossible, but i still tried.
At least with my whole heart, i poured it all out.
But as always you never fail to dis me aside, cast away my feelings and treated me differently
I knw its my fault, to make you go through this agony, to make u reject when u didnt want to hurt someone......
And still u didnt yield, instead the wound you made in my heart deepen even more
Till i finally breakdown and decided if its wat u wan, its wat u get........

i tried..
i knw...

Perhaps if we were together things would probably be different...

nothing special in particular happened today.. Went to study at cousin's place. ordered mac for food.. Was on my way home when i spotted my secondary school, School mate.. chatted wif her and found out that she had a reali reali kinda special yet expensive hobby. she loves to travel and will save up for travelling.. well abit uncommon for us teenager to save up for travelling. i mean most ppl would just save for for something they want? and the best part is. she enjoys travelling alot.. well i find rather interesting since shes the first among my friends to kinda enjoy travelling and will...well save up for it!.
Well i do hope u'll save up soon enough.. ahha who knows i might be the next one to do the same....

Lost Love....

I believe every story has an ending, needless to say a very touching one. after going through so many ups and downs we still end up at the beginning where it all begins. I hate to say that I'm gonna lose you, yet again even though after that last incident i swore that i would cultivate those "lost" back again. I failed miserably. Who's fault was it to blame? neither you nor me. i guess this is what most would call fate. But then again, fate sure has its way around me especially.. not to mention how my mind has been warped and twisted by it.
Is forgetting someone that easy? even after we've spent mostly every minute together? How foolish of me but for a moment it seems like I've lost my consciousness about prioritizing. The process is definitely pain-staking. even as I'm typing it out, i could feel it darting into my heart.
well i guess all i could do now is to forget. But u know i couldn't possibly do that. even as we speak, time ticks away, and promos are impending-.-'' Fate sure has its way around me.
maybe one day we will get a chance together again. for i sure that brotherly feeling i gave u will soon fade away.....

Sun was setting in golds and blues
Promising tomorrows will come true

memories lingers of houses passed
Crimson houses, our shadows cast

Eyes of brown; sun-kissed skin
Lips like wine as night begins
Sun bestows its final wink

Rest your head, hold me tight,
We move as one, by candlelight

Bodies sway with gentle sighs
Reflections play in loving eyes

Like petaled stem from virgin seeds
A soft cause like summer's breeze

Aganist the walls and window panes,
Our shadow's play like summer rain

Evening passes, music fades
Candle dims, moon invades

Filling within, hearts and minds
Like a love one feeds on hope to find
Now evening's kiss is on our lips
An evening dance to reminise

Whispers, soft, as your take my hand
Was it all a dream in an evening sand?

The promise made,not in haste.
Sweet thoughts of you like honey's taste.
Between the moon and the morning light,
you take me slowly, holding tight.

Simple pleasures as of new
Bodies one, but bow as two.
Like starlight wink,high aloft
They seem to say, without a sound,
Feelings true will always found

Things we feel, things we see
makes these lover's heart believe;

In things not heard,
In things not seen,
In simple love
And simple dreams

May god bless all ppl in love..
Thanks for everything....

u're ignoring me... perhaps u dun care anymore... but i do.... i always do....
u're hurting me alot... i hope u'll get back to me soon..

im feelin reali down these few days....
i broke down a few days ago....
i hope things wil be fine...

watashiwa kotoga ski desu

星期六晚上 哪都不想去 也无法入睡 看着电视机 持续在发呆 喝了七分醉 闭上了眼睛 试着不想你 但已来不及 忘了如何让眼泪停止流下 还好没人看见（看到） 没人会说话 星期六深夜 我想起了你 每什么特别 只是回忆 你让我自由 我很感激 星期六深夜 永远不会有任何人能代替你 这就是遗憾的滋味 陪着我形影不离 明天我会面带微笑 但无法忘记你

i wish u could see this..

PS : I Love U